Emotional Distress

Ever have one of those days that the smallest of things makes you cry? Make you more emotional than normal? Make you think of things you havent thought of in ages? Yeah, well today is one of those days.

It started with a story on the Iran Hostages on ESPN...one of the hostages came home to a 4 year old son and 2 year old daughter, neither of which wanted to spend time with him, because to them, he was a stranger (he was held captive for 444 days!). Well, then I thought what if my kids dont want to be with me? Of course I got all emotional. I could never live without my kids, and I fear the thought of ever leaving them on this earth.

Then, while eating breakfast, I turned on the TV and was watching ER. I only caught the tail-end of the episode, but there was a song playing in the backgound. Of course, I had never heard the song before, but HAD to find out who it was. It was a song called "The Promise" by Tracy Chapman. Now I have never been a fan of Tracy Chapman's music....it just never really appealed to me. So when I saw the lyrics, it was the song I had heard. Reading the lyrics, my immediate thoughts were of a friend of mine.

Like I said, my emotions are in overdrive -- who knows why things like this happen. Could be the weather, the time of year, the sheer madness of my life (yeah right!) -- I know alot of times I come across as "nothing bothers me"...but somedays, this is just a facade hiding the true feelings I am having at that moment. Even this tough guy (again, yeah right) has days that just dont go well. Apparently this is going to be one of them

To add to that today, I dropped a cable, and when I backed up in my chair to find out where it had landed, I rolled over it, breaking the cable. Apparently Green Bay doesnt have a decent electronics store. I spend 5 mins bouncing between computers and wireless at Best Buy. Circuit City didnt even know what I was talking about...oy! This town frustrates me to no end somedays.

I hope you all have a great day. I am going to get my day started (yeah, its after 1230 here now already!)

J