Most of you who know me by now know that Metallica is one of my alltime favorite bands, and yes, the title is a song of theres (from the album Master of Puppets in case you are keeping track at home). I highly suggest you have this in your CD collection.
Life's very strange at times. Days of lost and cofusion...days of total discontent with what you have become...all of those totally erased by a full day spent with your family...it is amazing how just the thought of your family can erase any of the discontent you allow to build up. Sunday, even though it was colder than hell here, I spent the whole day with them...Super Bowl meant nothing to me while they were up...probably another reason I wanna live SOUTH! The warm climates! I want to be able to get out more!
Probably one of the reasons I have gotten to the point I am in my weight struggles is the lack of regular activity. Usually from Dec-March, the only regular activity I get is walking in from the parking lot to work..long walk, but other than that, just too damn cold to do anything else!!
I miss the days of playing raquetball...even though I am sure the managers at Sun Village (the apartment complex we lived in during college were GLAD to see us leave). I dont know how, but structurally, the back glass of the raquetball courts were somehow 10x thicker than normal, and for good reason. I swear there was one time, the glass was SURE to break, and I KNOW the people waiting for us to finish our game thought it was going to break, because I hit it so hard, they were hiding their faces! WHAM!!!
I miss the flag football at the park in ABQ
I miss the golf games with my dad -- no carts - we walked 18 holes
I miss the snorkeling in the Keys...yes, I used to swim when I didnt look like a whale!
I miss bike-riding
I miss Monday Night bowling league (mainly because it was ALSO beer and wing night)
Time to get my ass back into shape -- no more aches and pains of my weight taking its toll on my body. No more not being able to run around the yard with my kids. No more breathlessness trying to do stairs....I have had enough...I did it once, I can do it again.
Monday, February 06, 2006
Friday, February 03, 2006
Choices
A month has passed...life is starting to return to normal.
There are times in our lives we all do it.
Wonder what we have done to get to where we are at
Think about the future
Ponder the inevitable
The one thing I think about the most are my kids. It is amazing how lucky I am. There are people in this world who cant even have kids...and I have two beautiful children.
I have a loving wife, who, no matter what is going on, still gives me the support and love like the day we met. There are many days that the average woman would have packed up and left town...nope, she is still here, and still loves me, even with all my faults.
I have a sister who always finds time (with a schedule that would mirror 3 people) to call and check in, ask how I am doing, whatever....I can say that there is nobody I would want as my sister...nobody compares to you :)
I have my brothers -- Bill and Rick -- that for 20 years, have been my backbone in life. No matter the distance...no matter the situations...we were always there for each other...and though they may not be blood, they are brothers none-the-less.
I have a friend who I work with. Linz basically said "...marriages are hard work, keep working at it. You aren't the quitting type" and she is so right...again, that old saying "2x4 across the back of the head"...yeah, she gave me one...thanks Linz...I have always said, you dont hold anything back...some people may say you are blunt...I just say you are honest. :)
All of this leads me to the choices we all face in everyday life. For me, moving around as a kid, the choice was easy - make friends, or stay lonely. A question as simple as "Can I set my stuff here" on the cafeteria table at lunch has led to 2 friendships I could never want to live without. Each day we are given the choice to either help ourselves or help others. Somedays, you actually get to do both, but unless we choose to not only help others, but also help ourselves, almost like Pay It Forward, we will forever be stuck in the "what might have been" mindset. You also have to take care of yourself. You are the best person to take care of yourself. Nobody can do a better job of taking care of yourself better than you.
Well, I am off to Sleepy-ville. I am finally getting over my cold...hopefully it stays away. Take care of yourselves.....
There are times in our lives we all do it.
Wonder what we have done to get to where we are at
Think about the future
Ponder the inevitable
The one thing I think about the most are my kids. It is amazing how lucky I am. There are people in this world who cant even have kids...and I have two beautiful children.
I have a loving wife, who, no matter what is going on, still gives me the support and love like the day we met. There are many days that the average woman would have packed up and left town...nope, she is still here, and still loves me, even with all my faults.
I have a sister who always finds time (with a schedule that would mirror 3 people) to call and check in, ask how I am doing, whatever....I can say that there is nobody I would want as my sister...nobody compares to you :)
I have my brothers -- Bill and Rick -- that for 20 years, have been my backbone in life. No matter the distance...no matter the situations...we were always there for each other...and though they may not be blood, they are brothers none-the-less.
I have a friend who I work with. Linz basically said "...marriages are hard work, keep working at it. You aren't the quitting type" and she is so right...again, that old saying "2x4 across the back of the head"...yeah, she gave me one...thanks Linz...I have always said, you dont hold anything back...some people may say you are blunt...I just say you are honest. :)
All of this leads me to the choices we all face in everyday life. For me, moving around as a kid, the choice was easy - make friends, or stay lonely. A question as simple as "Can I set my stuff here" on the cafeteria table at lunch has led to 2 friendships I could never want to live without. Each day we are given the choice to either help ourselves or help others. Somedays, you actually get to do both, but unless we choose to not only help others, but also help ourselves, almost like Pay It Forward, we will forever be stuck in the "what might have been" mindset. You also have to take care of yourself. You are the best person to take care of yourself. Nobody can do a better job of taking care of yourself better than you.
Well, I am off to Sleepy-ville. I am finally getting over my cold...hopefully it stays away. Take care of yourselves.....
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