The Memory Remains

Sometimes when you least expect it, something happens that brings back emotions and feelings you either have never dealt with, or have chosen to push so far deep down, that you "forgot" they were there. It seems I have this insatiable ability to suppress feelings and emotions, in the hopes that the feelings I had at that particular time, were just something in passing.

No matter what, the memory of that moment remains. It will creep up on you when you least expect it. You may see a movie preview, hear a song on the radio, or glance at a picture...and there it is...the feeling you chose not to deal with.

That is where I am tonight - and I am not dealing with these feelings and emotions very well. Right now I would give anything for an Ambien and a cool side of a pillow.

J-Dawg